I know I have not been around much in the last couple weeks, there has so much that has needed to be done around this house and to be completely honest aside from working I have been unbelievably lazy and slightly self destructive. I think everyone goes through that and we tend to reach for our vices for comfort, whether it be sweets or cigarettes or alcohol. Thus in my state of consious stasis I reached for my comforts and havent gotten very much done. Is this needed sometimes? When stress builds this can be an outlet that allows us to ease the fires of tension enough to be able to endure the ever present stresses of life. I am thinking so…..
I have also been having some really twisted dreams ones that have made me question who I am and have always been. They have both brought me to tears and yet to a state of immense contimplation. I realized after much thought that dreams do not dictate who you are or what path you choose but those simple realizations sometimes escape us when we are faced with visions so realistic that they plague the mind. Although they do mean something even though some believe dreams mean nothing, is that because we dont want to believe they mean something? or because or your mind is showing you something that you just dont want to face? When we sleep the mind is given free reign to show us whatever it desires but no matter what, whether it be a repressed memory or a twisted vision that shows us the lack of something in our life, they do mean something. You will all have to excuse me I am in a rather philosophical mood this morning..
On a happier note I know my last post expressed an idea for a book review site, I am in the process of creating a forum and in the next couple weeks I should have completely finished the site for both the reviews and the forum. I already have two people on board and one potential willing to do reviews if anyone else is out there who wants to come and share your ideas please feel free I would be happy to hear them. I will give you all updates as I get the ball rolling. Thank those of you who emailed me with your thoughts.
